[ dextera swallows a few times around the taste in his mouth, but the reality is that his body is fine. better than it was, actually—he feels lighter, his health restored, and some of the exhaustion of the week has been lifted right off his shoulders. the cut on his thigh has mostly healed by now, but it smooths over the rest of the way, too.
he looks at his own hands, curling and uncurling his fists, and he pulls up his sleeve to check a certain spot on his arm. there’s something squirming under his skin, which is just the worst, but he seems satisfied with whatever he’s looking at.
he drops his sleeve, and nods. when he points to his mouth, he cringes as if guren didn’t know that it already tasted bad, but then he pats down his body and nods again—more firmly this time, his clear gaze meeting guren’s face.
[He doesn't allow the amount of relief he feels at Dextera not puking his guts out show, but he does grin as he turns back to his laptop. Oh, his laptop is there, it seems, set up next to all of the glasses— he opens it up now and types a few things in a huge document he has saved. Next to a list of a variety of plants and numbers and chemical names, he writes "SUCCESS".]
That's about what you could get from eating five hearts in a row, roughly. It was hard to estimate exactly, since I don't know how it works, but... Just adding the right things to allow it to absorb into your body faster, and something to bring out the hearts... It's like your own first aid bottles.
[He places his hand over another jar on the table, that's full of the same type of liquid.] I'll find something easier for you to carry it in with the right amount.
[He's proud of himself!! He helped! Dextera has something he can rely on even when not fighting something he can eat the heart of!! It's five in one, isn't that great?!]
[ dextera, inevitably, drifts over to where guren is typing away on his laptop—and he surprises himself by recognizing certain chemical names. not all of them, it's not his forte, but he's spent enough time in the research lab and with doctor angelicus to know some of the things that should (and should not) go into the human body. ]
...
[ he nods at guren's explanation, pulls up the sleeve that does not hide a wriggling parasite, and traces his finger along the veins of his arm. he doesn't make any motion to inject, though, so the question is clear in that way—is the base of the drink blood? super-blood? ]
[He glances at that arm— he had noticed something squirming under the other one, but this one, there isn't? That's on hold as he finishes going over this drug, though.]
Blood, and a type of plant here I've never seen before. Feeding that plant to animals I had caught from the forest had a unique reaction in all of them when combined with a variety of other chemicals that are easy enough to reproduce. [Guren's speaking so seriously about this, but... He went through a lot of animals. A few of them exploded. He won't mention that.]
Harvesting from those samples and adding the right amount of other plants made it so you could gain the effects without anything else going wrong. You're able to stretch the use of the hearts out, too, so it's not as wasteful. [That was more of an accident than on purpose, though. He would have been fine turning five hearts into a potion of five hearts, but it seems like he can manage with just one.]
[ honestly, dextera would not be surprised to hear that something exploded. multiple things exploded, in fact? about half of the things that dextera has put in his mouth have caused an explosion and a nasty, subsequent death, but luckily he hasn't yet been able to remember that feeling. with any luck, he never will.
guren makes it all seem quite scientific, though, and his casual approach helps dextera feel a little less like this is some mad science experiment and more of guren trying to do some good around the town. the fact that it's in this basement doesn't do much for that, though. ]
...?
[ since it wasn't the topic of conversation, he'd forgotten that he hasn't actually told guren why he can eat anything, and in fact gently avoided being direct about it when it came up.
so he offers guren his arm, thinking that they're still talking about this drug. for a moment, nothing moves—and when it does, he remembers that he's a little embarrassed about it and quickly turns away to hide?! don't look... ]
[He saw it again, and Dextera is hiding?! Guren moves after him, grabbing his wrist gently and trying to convince him to let him see. He doesn't have to turn around, because Guren is moving around him for him, looking for himself.]
What was that? That moving under your skin— you know about it?
[ dextera nods. that's what guren was asking about? he wouldn't have shown him if he knew—the parasites are okay, when they tangle into his coats or his swords or his wings, but this particular one was forced under his skin by his good friend (???) the neophyte, and he doesn't have the heart to dig it out when it's pretty useful.
he's still trying to cover the spot where it moves with his other hand, but he's not actually fighting guren's attempts to look. ]
[Guren is absolutely going to look, because he is concerned, so he doesn't mind taking Dextera's hand to move it out of the way, the other holding his wrist still.]
What is it? Is it new? [Now that he's seen it, he releases Dextera to hide it all he wants.] Use my laptop if you have to, in a new document. I want to know if it's something I should be worrying about.
[ dextera shakes his head when guren asks if it's new, but there are enough questions about it floating around in the air now that he feels like he probably should just answer it. it's just an unpleasant thing, and while he has no qualms about the way he eats hearts or flesh, this is oddly a point at which he draws a line. ]
...
[ so he'll use guren's laptop, but the way he decides to answer it probably doesn't help. ]
[ it's a parasite!!! dextera can't answer while guren is grabbing his shoulder, and so he gently pulls himself away from guren's worried hand to try to explain more. whatever he says, though, probably isn't going to go well. that's just the nature of the game! ]
[At the very least, he gets the hint and pulls his own hand back. Dextera keeps typing so calmly, and Guren thinks that must mean he's fine... They've been here nearly two months and it hasn't changed anything, right? So was it fine? But...]
Can't you understand how that would be worrying? Can't something like that kill you? Do you need it taken out?
It's the reason I don't need to cook anything. It protects me from raw and rotten meat, as long as I keep it alive.
[ he's only typing calmly because he is really not stoked about its existence. it's kind of big, and it's been inside him long enough that he is, admittedly, a little worried about it? but the last thing he wants is for it to be taken out, when it does such a good job! ]
[He doesn't know what to say to this. It... helps, then? If Dextera is processing things like human hearts. But... Is that bad for him, then? He stares at Dextera's face, rather than his arm, giving him the most concerned frown he's ever openly expressed here in this town.]
I won't look at it anymore if you promise to tell me if it changes for the worse.
I will, but it won't change. I've had a lot of them. This is just the newest one.
[ honestly if it didn't seem like it would kill him for real, he might have already tried to start looking for new ones—but there's no way to know that there are even any viable ones out there, in the forest, and it's hard to raise a family with just one little guy in there!! ]
[It's incredibly clear that Guren isn't happy with that answer. There's no attempt at even expanding on what it does, or reassuring him, so he can only assume that the answers aren't good. Hiding it from him, and so stubbornly, without holding back... He doesn't want to admit it bothers him.
Beyond that, it just doesn't feel right. And when he'd just been celebrating the drug he made to make things easier, too.]
Whatever. Then we're moving on. [In clear anger, he allows that topic to drop, turning away from his laptop and over to the other items on the table. That's right... There are a variety of liquids he hasn't mentioned at all. He unhooks his sword from his waist, leaning it against the far end of the table, and picks up one of the glasses.
The liquid is grey, since the majority of the ingredients were, as well.]
Now, it's me who has to try a few things. I just need you to watch.
[ the thing about his silence is that it's pretty easy to maintain, when there's something he doesn't want to say. he's a truthful person by nature, but the fact that he can't talk is an easy excuse to avoid explaining things when he doesn't want to—and right now, he doesn't want to! sorry!!! ]
...
[ he is genuinely sorry to have pissed guren off, but if they're moving on, they're moving on. he gets rid of his own document with the evidence of their brief, awkward conversation, and then he follows guren closer to the table.
"to watch"? that doesn't bode well, but... reluctantly, he nods. ]
[Guren holds out his arm when Dextera gets close enough, keeping him at roughly that distance. That probably also doesn't bode well, but he wants to be cautious. With a stare down at the glass that's honestly just as reluctant as Dextera had been, he tips his head back and downs it, shoving the glass down immediately after.
It's disgusting, and that's his first reaction coughing with a hand over his mouth, and for a moment, he's hoping that's all it'll be.
But then pain shoots through his body, enough to make him yell, which is strange enough. His legs buckle, and then he's on the ground, shaking violently, still making strained, pained noises.
This one didn't work at all... He can't even test it for its intended purpose if this is the effect it gives.]
[ dextera's was disgusting, but it didn't seem harmful at all. was dextera moments away from this for himself? was his parasite the only thing standing between him and certain death?!
he's not thinking these selfish thoughts right now, though, with guren on the floor after yelling like that. should he get help? should he stay here? guren seemed to anticipate that something like this might happen, but has he been testing things on himself the whole time? dextera follows guren to his knees, and he wonders if purification could be the answer here... but then he might just kill guren, and that would be bad for both of them. instead, his hands hover a safe distance away, though he cranes his neck like he wants to call for help upstairs.
[ Even if he did have a voice, Guren had a sound muffling seal on the door right now. He’s just conscious enough to reach out with one shaking hand, wincing through the motion. ]
D-don’t... [ Hopefully that’s clear enough. Don’t tell them, don’t call for them, they don’t know a thing. If he had suspected this one would cause such a large reaction, he might not have risked it in front of Dextera. These plants had such mild effects separately, but together, this is what the combination does?
It lasts another fifteen seconds before it stops, and he’s left gasping for breath, shaking only from remnants of the pain that had been shooting through him moments ago. ] I’m okay. [ He’s winded, but there are no external injuries? Just his tired face. ] It’s alright. I messed up on that one.
[ dextera gets what he means immediately, but it doesn't make him feel better. he's suspicious again of what's going on down here, between guren's reaction and the insistence on not calling for help—it's not good, right? this is bad, and it makes him wary of taking more of that potion that was concocted for him, even if the effects are as beneficial as can be. ]
...
[ he sighs out a worried breath that sounds almost on the verge of tears, but luckily for guren, he manages to hold that back before anything spills through. he tightens his fists hard enough to form crescents in his palm instead, and he looks at guren with an expression that clearly demands him to explain. ]
[ As he evens out, he reaches to cover Dextera’s clenched hand with his own, breathing deeply. ]
The one you took was the seventh try to get things right. Then, I had to try that one a handful of times, over a handful of days, before I had you try it to make sure it worked. [ A brief start to this all, a lead in. ]
This one here was a first try. The next two are thirds. If I want to be able to help everyone here, then solutions like these have to be found. If I can help treat injuries, or block against magic, or increase strength... Then it could make emergency situations more controllable.
[ dextera does understand, and he finds it noble in that sense—he didn’t doubt that guren wanted to help, but this seems like such a price to pay. guren is too reckless with his own body.
but so is dextera! the next ones, he gestures to, and then urgently to himself. if guren thinks he can just take those drugs in front of dextera and not have dextera volunteer to help, he has another thing coming to him!!
his organs probably actually would explode and he would die, however, so it’s best to stop him here before he becomes determined to do it. ]
[ He knew showing him this would have him volunteering. It’s something that can’t be helped, and he’s already got an answer, gripping the edge of the table as he pulls himself up. ]
These drugs are entirely reworking the body. I can give them to you when a side effect is as simple as nausea... like yours was. [ He’s standing, and he sighs, moving to his laptop to type out the failure. ] But when they’re unknown, it can be as much as organs rupturing. I’m the only one who can survive something like that.
[ dextera follows him, of course, now with the intention to get a look over guren's list to see just how many of them are failures—any of them is more than dextera wants to see, because he knows guren has tested all of them on himself up to this point. that's bad. that's terrible, in fact, but dextera can't do anything but grip guren's arm like he's trying to steady him on his feet.
he seems to be fine already after that, mostly, but dextera suddenly feels quite useless. the contact is nice. ]
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[ dextera swallows a few times around the taste in his mouth, but the reality is that his body is fine. better than it was, actually—he feels lighter, his health restored, and some of the exhaustion of the week has been lifted right off his shoulders. the cut on his thigh has mostly healed by now, but it smooths over the rest of the way, too.
he looks at his own hands, curling and uncurling his fists, and he pulls up his sleeve to check a certain spot on his arm. there’s something squirming under his skin, which is just the worst, but he seems satisfied with whatever he’s looking at.
he drops his sleeve, and nods. when he points to his mouth, he cringes as if guren didn’t know that it already tasted bad, but then he pats down his body and nods again—more firmly this time, his clear gaze meeting guren’s face.
what was that? ]
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That's about what you could get from eating five hearts in a row, roughly. It was hard to estimate exactly, since I don't know how it works, but... Just adding the right things to allow it to absorb into your body faster, and something to bring out the hearts... It's like your own first aid bottles.
[He places his hand over another jar on the table, that's full of the same type of liquid.] I'll find something easier for you to carry it in with the right amount.
[He's proud of himself!! He helped! Dextera has something he can rely on even when not fighting something he can eat the heart of!! It's five in one, isn't that great?!]
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[ he nods at guren's explanation, pulls up the sleeve that does not hide a wriggling parasite, and traces his finger along the veins of his arm. he doesn't make any motion to inject, though, so the question is clear in that way—is the base of the drink blood? super-blood? ]
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[He glances at that arm— he had noticed something squirming under the other one, but this one, there isn't? That's on hold as he finishes going over this drug, though.]
Blood, and a type of plant here I've never seen before. Feeding that plant to animals I had caught from the forest had a unique reaction in all of them when combined with a variety of other chemicals that are easy enough to reproduce. [Guren's speaking so seriously about this, but... He went through a lot of animals. A few of them exploded. He won't mention that.]
Harvesting from those samples and adding the right amount of other plants made it so you could gain the effects without anything else going wrong. You're able to stretch the use of the hearts out, too, so it's not as wasteful. [That was more of an accident than on purpose, though. He would have been fine turning five hearts into a potion of five hearts, but it seems like he can manage with just one.]
Can I see your other arm?
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guren makes it all seem quite scientific, though, and his casual approach helps dextera feel a little less like this is some mad science experiment and more of guren trying to do some good around the town. the fact that it's in this basement doesn't do much for that, though. ]
...?
[ since it wasn't the topic of conversation, he'd forgotten that he hasn't actually told guren why he can eat anything, and in fact gently avoided being direct about it when it came up.
so he offers guren his arm, thinking that they're still talking about this drug. for a moment, nothing moves—and when it does, he remembers that he's a little embarrassed about it and quickly turns away to hide?! don't look... ]
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[He saw it again, and Dextera is hiding?! Guren moves after him, grabbing his wrist gently and trying to convince him to let him see. He doesn't have to turn around, because Guren is moving around him for him, looking for himself.]
What was that? That moving under your skin— you know about it?
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[ dextera nods. that's what guren was asking about? he wouldn't have shown him if he knew—the parasites are okay, when they tangle into his coats or his swords or his wings, but this particular one was forced under his skin by his good friend (???) the neophyte, and he doesn't have the heart to dig it out when it's pretty useful.
he's still trying to cover the spot where it moves with his other hand, but he's not actually fighting guren's attempts to look. ]
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What is it? Is it new? [Now that he's seen it, he releases Dextera to hide it all he wants.] Use my laptop if you have to, in a new document. I want to know if it's something I should be worrying about.
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[ so he'll use guren's laptop, but the way he decides to answer it probably doesn't help. ]
It's a parasite.
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[He's only getting more worried!! He's tense, grabbing at Dextera's shoulder.]
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It's not new. I've had it for a long time.
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Can't you understand how that would be worrying? Can't something like that kill you? Do you need it taken out?
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[ he's only typing calmly because he is really not stoked about its existence. it's kind of big, and it's been inside him long enough that he is, admittedly, a little worried about it? but the last thing he wants is for it to be taken out, when it does such a good job! ]
Don't look at it.
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[He doesn't know what to say to this. It... helps, then? If Dextera is processing things like human hearts. But... Is that bad for him, then? He stares at Dextera's face, rather than his arm, giving him the most concerned frown he's ever openly expressed here in this town.]
I won't look at it anymore if you promise to tell me if it changes for the worse.
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[ honestly if it didn't seem like it would kill him for real, he might have already tried to start looking for new ones—but there's no way to know that there are even any viable ones out there, in the forest, and it's hard to raise a family with just one little guy in there!! ]
For now, I need it.
[ and that's the end of that, isn't it? ]
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Beyond that, it just doesn't feel right. And when he'd just been celebrating the drug he made to make things easier, too.]
Whatever. Then we're moving on. [In clear anger, he allows that topic to drop, turning away from his laptop and over to the other items on the table. That's right... There are a variety of liquids he hasn't mentioned at all. He unhooks his sword from his waist, leaning it against the far end of the table, and picks up one of the glasses.
The liquid is grey, since the majority of the ingredients were, as well.]
Now, it's me who has to try a few things. I just need you to watch.
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...
[ he is genuinely sorry to have pissed guren off, but if they're moving on, they're moving on. he gets rid of his own document with the evidence of their brief, awkward conversation, and then he follows guren closer to the table.
"to watch"? that doesn't bode well, but... reluctantly, he nods. ]
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It's disgusting, and that's his first reaction coughing with a hand over his mouth, and for a moment, he's hoping that's all it'll be.
But then pain shoots through his body, enough to make him yell, which is strange enough. His legs buckle, and then he's on the ground, shaking violently, still making strained, pained noises.
This one didn't work at all... He can't even test it for its intended purpose if this is the effect it gives.]
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—?!
[ dextera's was disgusting, but it didn't seem harmful at all. was dextera moments away from this for himself? was his parasite the only thing standing between him and certain death?!
he's not thinking these selfish thoughts right now, though, with guren on the floor after yelling like that. should he get help? should he stay here? guren seemed to anticipate that something like this might happen, but has he been testing things on himself the whole time? dextera follows guren to his knees, and he wonders if purification could be the answer here... but then he might just kill guren, and that would be bad for both of them. instead, his hands hover a safe distance away, though he cranes his neck like he wants to call for help upstairs.
too bad about that, though. ]
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D-don’t... [ Hopefully that’s clear enough. Don’t tell them, don’t call for them, they don’t know a thing. If he had suspected this one would cause such a large reaction, he might not have risked it in front of Dextera. These plants had such mild effects separately, but together, this is what the combination does?
It lasts another fifteen seconds before it stops, and he’s left gasping for breath, shaking only from remnants of the pain that had been shooting through him moments ago. ] I’m okay. [ He’s winded, but there are no external injuries? Just his tired face. ] It’s alright. I messed up on that one.
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[ he sighs out a worried breath that sounds almost on the verge of tears, but luckily for guren, he manages to hold that back before anything spills through. he tightens his fists hard enough to form crescents in his palm instead, and he looks at guren with an expression that clearly demands him to explain. ]
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The one you took was the seventh try to get things right. Then, I had to try that one a handful of times, over a handful of days, before I had you try it to make sure it worked. [ A brief start to this all, a lead in. ]
This one here was a first try. The next two are thirds. If I want to be able to help everyone here, then solutions like these have to be found. If I can help treat injuries, or block against magic, or increase strength... Then it could make emergency situations more controllable.
Do you understand?
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but so is dextera! the next ones, he gestures to, and then urgently to himself. if guren thinks he can just take those drugs in front of dextera and not have dextera volunteer to help, he has another thing coming to him!!
his organs probably actually would explode and he would die, however, so it’s best to stop him here before he becomes determined to do it. ]
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[ He knew showing him this would have him volunteering. It’s something that can’t be helped, and he’s already got an answer, gripping the edge of the table as he pulls himself up. ]
These drugs are entirely reworking the body. I can give them to you when a side effect is as simple as nausea... like yours was. [ He’s standing, and he sighs, moving to his laptop to type out the failure. ] But when they’re unknown, it can be as much as organs rupturing. I’m the only one who can survive something like that.
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he seems to be fine already after that, mostly, but dextera suddenly feels quite useless. the contact is nice. ]
...ngh.
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